Reyna. My first thought after reading your post is a quote from PJ Fleck, head football coach at the University of Minnesota. He said once that: “We have a problem in our society. We don’t have a problem in our program.” I think it echoes in your situation. From your post it seems there is a problem in the evaluation process not in your program. You know what your program is and what your program does for kids. Keep running through the wall. Some kids won’t realize how much you did for them until much later, and even if they never realize it you get to live with the knowledge that you gave your best to your kids. I will close by offering this one final quote. Three years ago I did a complete overhaul of our program and culture which obviously created some pushback. I gave every kid a business card to keep in their wallet to remind them that they were apart of something bigger than themselves. On the back we had our core values and on the front I put The Man in the Arena quote by Theodore Roosevelt:
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.”
Hang in there, keep giving your best, and as PJ would say keep “Rowing the Boat.” Hope this helps. Have a great Friday!